how YOU doin'?

while i was out with w hopping between a dinner where burnin’ steph’s andrew was at and then going to sb’s birthday dinner, i realized that people in these social engagements, to just make casual conversation, often ask me, “so, how are you doing”?

and i realize: i have no idea how to answer this question.

i want to reply, “fine. i guess. why do you care? what do you really want to know?”

“oh, fine, just working a lot, you know, keeping busy,” i invariably answer. or non-answer.

w had a good insight as to why i have so much trouble answering this question: it’s because i don’t know what’s going on. no, not that i’m just stupid or not paying attention, but more that our life is been in limbo for so long that having everything unresolved makes it impossible to answer that question.

are we moving to lost angels? are we not? where? when? why?

hmc’s got two job opportunities right now: one to work back at sony, for the new bob z show on beowulf, or possibly to work on the new james cameron pic avatar.

beowulf factors:

• + all star cast: john malkovich, anthony hopkins, angelina jolie, crispin glover.
  
• + possibly shorter: she could sign on for just the mocap shoot, which would mean only 4-6 months.
  
• + people she knows and an environment she’s used to.
  
• + getting to be on set, at least for the shoot portion
  
• - sony is trying to rook her with a sucky offer.
  
• + did i mention the part involving watching angelina jolie do mocap in a skin tight suit?

avatar factors:

• + possibly better for career development, especially if she wants to be a producer.
  
• - would have to sign on for two years.
  
• - more of an office job, away from the action.
  
• - james is famed as a big screamer. at best.
  
• ? the big unknown

what does this all mean? more uncertainty. if avatar, then move to lost angels. i’m not doing another 2 year stint of being up here while hmc is down there. but if it’s beowulf, then maybe it’s up in the air again for a few more months? because if she doesn’t sign on for post, why move down there?

do you see now why i don’t know how i’m doing? i don’t know what i’m doing. or where i’m doing it.

not to mention when.

Posted at August 22, 2005 1:40 PM