where's the time?

so what’s the deal?

i’ve been back for weeks now, and somehow i just can’t get into the habit. i’ve dropped of the side of the earth, without much of a trace.

granted, it’s an awkward time to come back, as there’s much to do: not only is there three weeks of work to catch up on, there’s suddenly the holidays to prepare for, endure, and then recover from.

and somehow, i don’t know, maybe it’s more than that.

when i was on our honeymoon, i would dutifully record little snippets and write them down so i could enter them here later when i stopped in and could get internet access. i’d type them into our woefully underpowered laptop, and then keep them on a usb memory stick (which, btw, has more memory than the laptop!!) and then upload them at an internet cafe.

however, hmc had bought a journal that she intended as a travel diary for us both, and this ended up precluding that. i offered to write it in both, but she ended up being a little dispirited, and gave up the project.

it makes me think about where i’m putting in my energy and intentions. a lot of the “space” between things where i used to write or post are now are taken up by actually living with a wife. it’s funny to say, but it’s much more time consuming to be with your spouse instead of just seeing her a couple of weekends a month.

it’s certainly not a bad thing, but you don’t get the chance to run off and sit on the computer at the odd time of day. it’s just strange and silly when you can be with the one you love instead.

Posted at December 26, 2004 8:50 PM