in between

talking with cheryl and listening about how she feels that she’s starting to pull back from the community because she knows she’s leaving in the next year, i’m reminded about how in many ways, i’ve already done this. the past year has been sort of uncertain, with the stated game plan being to get hmc back here, but with the possibility looming that she won’t be able to work up here and thus i should just go down there. the uncertainty has put on hold a lot of decisions and actions, like house hunting/buying, and a lot of commitments and responsibilities, which keeps me from taking on roles or jobs that would last more than a few months.

but now that hmc looks to be on her way back at the end of the year, suddenly i’m reversed and faced with reintegrating and recommitting with my friends, my job, my community. it’s all very confusing, honestly. and what if it’s only temporary? what if hmc moves up here, can’t find work, and we have to ultimately move down there anyway?

i don’t know.

i am glad, however, that this weekend i got to eat sushi and fried chicken. vegetarian best friends be damned!

plus, i got tickets to the new pj harvey show on october 21st!

Posted at September 19, 2004 11:54 PM