thanks... i think

thanks to everyone chiming in, and reminding me that not going out and agressively pursuing something that i didn’t want in the first place is no big loss.

but then that does bring up the bigger stickier question, “what is it that i do want?”

having not been able to figure that out to any reasonable degree, i’ve been able to content myself with making a reasonable amount of money with the littlest amount of effort, even to the point where i’m often able to “work” without even leaving the house. or getting out of my pajamas. or taking a shower. or…

but perhaps the point, learned over and over again, whether it be lots of video games and play or luxurious rest and daily relaxation, is that you really need to find something you love to do to be happy. because then you can apply yourself and work hard for it, and have something you love to show it.

(as an illustration, not a boast) roo says about me: “i’ve always thought that you would be great running your own gig. something creative. something wild. something fantastic.”

so maybe this is true. who knows? but again, what?

so, in my best universe/yogi/insert your spirituality here, i’m putting it out there. i’m officially opening my eyes to try and figure out what’s that fantastic thing i should be doing. i’ll try not to be too busy napping or eating fried chicken when it comes around.

Posted at April 15, 2004 8:41 PM