i was feeling quite strange all day today about work. early this morning they announced the names of the two new SE managers, replacing one that had been promoted, and adding a new one. i’ve got no problems with who they picked and i think they’ll do a great job. but somehow, all day long i felt as if i’ve missed out on something.
i had been asked lots of times if i had wanted to apply for the job, having been told that i would have done a great job. and every time, aside from the nice compliment, i kept thinking that i really didn’t want to get back into management, and that managing people was just a hassle i didn’t need or want again. i’ve been doing this “team lead” function for the better part of the year, and i can’t help but agree what they said about that on that hilarious bbc show the office:
tim: my job title actually means something, gareth, yeah? i got a pay raise, i’m on a new scale; ‘team leader’ don’t mean anything, man.
gareth: excuse me, it means i’m a leader of a team.
tim: no it doesn’t. it’s a title someone’s given you to get you to do something they don’t want to do for free! right? it’s like making the diff kid at school the milk monitor.
i dunno. i’m pretty sure that i didn’t want to do it, but i wonder if i’m just not being ambitious enough. it’s one thing to choose not to do something because you’ve got other goals and plans, but it’s another to choose not to do something because you’re lazy.
i hope i’m not too lazy for my own good. but i’m never sure.
seems like there’s a lot of worrying going around…
Posted at April 14, 2004 10:58 PMdo not fight the lazy. the lazy is your friend.
well, sounds to me like the job has very little appeal to you. if you wanted to manage, that would be one thing, but there’s no reason to apply for a job you’d enjoy less. unless the difference in money is important enough to you to warrant the hassle.
you’re not *required* to climb the corporate ladder if you’re happy where you are.
Posted by: Jon at April 15, 2004 10:23 AMi’ve been thinking about what you said, that “it’s one thing to choose not to do something because you’ve got other goals and plans, but it’s another to choose not to do something because you’re lazy.”
i think there’s another alternative in there. what if you just don’t like your job. maybe there’s something else out there you would be passionate about (you’re not lazy) but you don’t know what it is (you don’t have other goals or plans).
ambition is the root of all evil
or suffering, or something…
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i just keep thinking, wwmd? wwtd? but then i remember, “i’m not machiavelli! i’m not trump!” oh yeah… in the meantime, off to watch ‘the apprentice’.
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